I think I am starting to get this Waldorf Rhythm thing…
I am a total closet romantic who secretly and desperately needs something grounding. I have spent my entire life trying to find my self, to understand humanity and of wanting to do and achieve things.
I have always craved freedom, warmth yet structure and after years of searching and discovering new ideals I finally learned what Yoga is.
To Yoke body mind and spirit is the definition of Yoga, it is also Waldorf.
Waldorf is about flowing, of doing everything connected and as true to nature as possible. To act naturally and through art, chores, time in nature and time to learn or work with your hands. (all things I love and strive to do everyday anyways) Basically Waldorf is about living life the way I have always dreamed…but it has a name and a bunch of artsy festivals and such to make sure children hold on to magic.
To be honest I was feeling a little bitter, anxious and in constant flight or fight these last few months.
I have been feeling like a failure because I have to take Sierra to work with me, she watches more TV then I ever liked (not that much and not with me) and Sierra has been very outwardly defiant occasionally (karma) and picker then ever. (My daughter of course is very sweet, kind, intelligent and is very empathetic)
I was blaming my decision to work ( a job I love) because we were not having this perfect `Waldorf rhythm.`
This minor breakdown began with my decision to unschool Sierra. I had never thought about homeschooling or Montessori and I had never even heard of Waldorf. When Sierra was a baby and I was home with her we had Rhythm, exactly like Waldorf..to the T.
So I faked it. I stuck positive and kept setting the things for everything I wanted. I kept my rhythm and routine and left her alone but always listened to her and reminded her of how helpful she is and how important her part in the family is.
Shes starting to chill but to be honest its more me then her. Sometimes its hard but I just need to set my mind, live my life of simpleness and change my attitude. I need to flow and make everything count and now that I understand Flow I get Waldorf Rhythm.